Returning to the land of the living

So I wrote this huge blog post when I got back home from my trip and then my battery died and I lost it. Then today I had three people comment about how I’ve just left you all hanging, so here I am!!!

I’m so glad I went away. After three nights in Tofino and two at my Dad’s, many hours of singing loudly in the car and visits with all my favourite people, I have returned to Victoria with a much better outlook than I had when I left. I feel human again. I feel alive. I’m done my pity party and I’m ready to tackle new things.

Today was chemo number 16. I went alone, which went very well, and right afterward went downtown for my first post chemo haircut! I kept the grey, but I’m noticing it’s coming in darker and darker as time goes along. I’m now officially stainless steel, which is very trendy these days. Especially in kitchens!

I’ve decided I am going to try my hand at painting. Like pictures, not walls. When I was in Tofino I became very aware of the light and contrast of the landscape. Man we live in a beautiful place!! So today I spent the afternoon figuring out what I need to get started, and a friend of mine has inherited a bunch of paint supplies that are now coming my way. Now I just need to actually put brush to canvas. Jeff has no idea, by the way. He’ll inevitably just shake his head and point at my boxes and boxes of yarn. But it’s a whim I’m willing to humour. Who knows what will or will not come of it – I may have some hidden talent that’s just itching to bust out!

I’ve also decided it’s time to spring clean (as much as I can, given my physical limitations) and am starting with emptying/purging one drawer a day. Today was the cookie sheet drawer. I found 7 roasting pans and 9 muffin tins. Who needs seven roasting pans?? Tomorrow is my reusable bag drawer. You know, the ones that I never ever take to the store? I figure I can purge my internal baggage with my kitchen clutter.

My next big exciting adventure is to go see Aidan in Saskatchewan for his birthday next week. I can’t believe my boy is turning 16! He’s been learning to drive since January as part of his school curriculum. When he comes home for spring break I’ll have to teach him about hills and bends in roads!

I had all kinds of insight and big thoughts I wanted to share with you but they went out the window with my lost post. So just know that I’m finally starting to feel like myself again. It’s been a dark tunnel I’ve been trapped in, so I’m very pleased to have emerged. Thanks for your love 🙂